breathe in, breathe out...

Damn, this blog has become my outlet... and I feel that sometimes I couldn't make it without it... Family is complicated... we all know that... It is definately not easy dealing with our moms, dads, stepmoms (take a look at faitry tales) and stepdads... As previously stated I haven't had the best relationship with my mom... actually right now, we are not in speaking terms... we were fighting so much that a time to cool off was in order... However, i have come to realized she actually decided to take some time off from me... we are both so stubborn... neither of us want to be wrong... I have written e-mails taking all the fault to myself a couple of times... I just can't do it anymore.... we are both at fault here... I miss her... I was looking at some new pictures of her with my stepdad on orkut and tears started to pour... I miss having them in my life... I miss talking to her... I am so sad right now... it hurts so much... I hate the whole fighting thing... and with us is a catch 22... no one gives in... I mean, i have already sent an e-mail asking her to leave it all behind, so we can start over... she is giving me the cold shoulder... and I know she wants me me to take all the blame... I just CAN"T I'll maybe post more details about it some time... I just needed to vent a little... see you next time... thanks for "listening"... :P