Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Yeah guys (as if anyone reads this thing... lol)... Fiding someone interesting to spend some time with is definatelly not a piece of cake... We all know that... even when we do find someone that might be worthwhile and there is a connection, there are SO MANY games to be played, that if you don't know the rules you are screwed... What's up with that?? Im serious... I know that half of the pleasure is the chase and bla bla bla... but if there is a real mutual connection, what's the matter with cutting all that crap and just having fun?? I feel like I am playing a real life game of monopoly, if I make the wrong move I'll have to declare bankrupcy in the end (in this case, simply be alone)... How is that fair to ANYONE? I just think it isn't, at all... The whole: "If I call him now he'll think Im too desperate" crap... pisses me off... I swear... Because honestly (I m talking for myself here) it DOES NOT mean that... All it means is that I might be thnking about him at the moment... and him calling back or simply showing at least the minimum amount of interest is not gonna open a Pandora's Box of clingness (honestly, I am SOOO not like that)... I am sick and tired of me and my friends analysing every little thing... Because no one acts the way they mean anymore... it's all a matter of apperances I guess... no one wants to seem to want anything special or worthwhile, in some cases they actually don't... That's beside the point here... I know I am young with a lot of life ahead of me... But I can't help but wonder (sex and the city flashback right there... lol) is it ever going to get better or even simpler?? Why can't it be simple... We have fun, I like you, I'm attracted to you... Let's spend some time together and see what happens?? Are the games really better than that?? Or are we just used to them? If I don't know the rules, what's my future then? I believe wholehartedly that when it matters, things should be as simple as can be... No rules, no games... Just you being you... How much more real can it get? Honestly? Aren't you tired???