Saudades...

Here I am, awake at 7:13am... No, I didn't wake up early, I haven't slept yet hehe...

I decided to write this post after surfing around some old friends' profiles on Orkut. It's funny that despite the fact that I will never forget all those people that came into my life, when you change your life so radically as I did, you do leave too much behind...

Since I was a kid I always heard that "goodbyes" are easier for the people that are "leaving" or "moving on" because they are "going", they are on the move to a new adventure and those who are left behind stand still... It might not be completely true, but it is valid somehow...

Looking at some friends' pics I realize how much my life is disconnected from theirs. I know it is normal, after all the distance is so great... however, it is still painful to see that you are not really a part of their lives anymore... I am sure that they still love me as I love them... but that "day-today" relationship is over and that is when the "saudades" come in...

"SAUDADE" is a very special word and it only exists with it's intensity in the Portuguese language... the closest to it in English would be "to miss someone/something".

"SAUDADE" is an extreme sense of longing for people, places and things you love and that the absence hurts a lot...

There are so many people I miss, so many people I left behind and in different places... I know I will never forget them and they will always have a special place in my heart... I also know that I will see them all again and we will celebrate life together again...

On the mosaic above I show some of these people, in different moments of my life... Moischa, meu bebe, Mimi, Vitti, Aline, Nigga, lil' nigga, Leny, Manu, Iroca, Mammy, Flavio, Rodo...

*Some people are not there simply because I don't have their pictures (pics with me I mean)...

I lost so many files when my computer crashed...

**To name a few of the missing ones: Isabelle (my bitch), Leidy, Gaby, Fafa, Nando, Rodrigo... (sorry if I forgot anyone...)

***I didn't add any pics of my great friends in Israel... this post is about who I left behind... I do love you all...

Ps: To anonymous: I do watch a lot of TV shows, I DL about 25 a week...

Thanks for the comments: Anonymous, Gooooood girl and misfit :) keep on coming :D

The perfect ending...

Through the years I have become addicted to a great amount of TV shows. That obsession caused me to have my "don't talk to me I'm watching..." moments. However, a show that I was never too obsessed about was "Six Feet Under". I knew the characters, I saw a lot of episodes, but it was never a comitment for me to watch the show and I was never dying to see the next season. It came as a surprised for me that "Six Feet Under" produced the best Series Finale EVER. The show ended in 2005 and I remember catching the finale by accident on HBO Brazil the following year. A couple minutes ago the finale just aired on Channel 2 here in Israel and it made me cry AGAIN. I can't help but shed tears everytime I watch it. The combination of images and the song chosen to follow them is exquisite and incomparable. The last scene follows each characters future until their deaths, cutting back and forth with Claire (the youngest of the main family) driving toward her uncertain future in NYC. Seeing each characters future and how their demise arrived is heart wrenchingly beautiful. There are no loose threads and story lines. A true end for a great show. The cast of the show was so talented that most of its actors are currently in great shows out there. Michael C. Hall (David) is Dexter, Frances Conroy is guest starring in Desperate Housewives, Rachel Griffiths is Sarah Walker on Brothers & Sisters and Peter Krause was starring in Dirty, Sexy Money. The creator of Six Feet Under has also created the season hit True Blood, which finished its first season las week and has a second season guaranteed. *if you've never seen the show, you'll probably not get the strength of the ending... Though you might still enjoy the song... which is: Breathe me by Sia Here's the video... Enjoy: