I absolutely suck at romance and dating! Just wanted to get that out there right up front. I guess I started dating a bit late in life because of a number of different reasons, but that isn’t really a reason for anything, it’s just a fact. Regardless, I simply suck at the whole dating thing. I never know when to call, not call, text, not text, play nonchalant or express how I feel. I can’t play the game and for a while now I have been coming to the conclusion that this is maybe a game I should not even try to play. I hate not being able to be myself and having to act a certain way to attract or not scare a guy off, I hate the limbo between a first date or meet and the possibility of a call or a second date. I just hate all that and even though I am not closed up for romance, I am tired of it all really. Guys, this post isn’t about needing reassurance that one day I will find the right person, it’s only me opening up a different part of me that I don’t really share online all that often =) A lot of people over the years have come to me and said: “You need to love yourself before you can love someone else”. I so agree with that and I honestly am completely happy on my own. I don’t need a man to make me happy and make me feel fulfilled. However, I would like to share pieces of me, my heart and my life with someone other than my friends and family. It is not a NEED it’s a WANT and I am good with that. I simply hate how inadequate the dating scene can make you feel, specially for a chubby girl. Self confidence is the hardest thing for me to hold onto and society doesn’t really help, does it? Despite that, with the diet and losing weight, I have been doing quite well with holding on to my confidence, but it is so hard when all you see around are mini skirts and tight dresses =/ Oh well, I guess I should end my venting here LOL
How about you guys?
Have you ever had any issues with the dating scene?
I would love to hear your story, being it one with a happy ending or not =D